Fareeha, while I know how hard it would be for me, I cannot know what it was like in your position.
But the fact of the matter is that I was dead.
[Which needed some explanation. It was a rather shameful part of her life but she wasn't going to let it hold her back. Not from someone who deserved to hear it.]
Not in a physical way but I may as well have been. Because I hesitated, people died. People important to me. Do you understand what I am saying?
[For someone who treats her allies and friends as part of her extended family, a better outcome would have been to actually die since the death of them was on her hands. That is what the Ana of the past would say. But now, she knows there are things far more important.]
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But the fact of the matter is that I was dead.
[Which needed some explanation. It was a rather shameful part of her life but she wasn't going to let it hold her back. Not from someone who deserved to hear it.]
Not in a physical way but I may as well have been. Because I hesitated, people died. People important to me. Do you understand what I am saying?
[For someone who treats her allies and friends as part of her extended family, a better outcome would have been to actually die since the death of them was on her hands. That is what the Ana of the past would say. But now, she knows there are things far more important.]