His reaction isn't in keeping with her fervor and she loses steam quickly. Goddamn it, it's just not fair. She pauses, eyes still closed, and breaks the kiss to tilt her head away. "I had to," she mutters. And that's the most vulnerable he's going to see her—today, or for quite a while. Because she drops her hands from his head and steps back and—well, that's it, that's all. She grabs the trays and moves to leave.