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THE TL;DR HEADCANON MEME

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Re: Peter Maximoff | X-Men Movieverse

[takeitslow]

Short answer? Not really.

Peter has a very complicated sense of self, which isn't so much complicated as it is 'very teenager'. I've tried to draw from the latest movie in terms of his self image (though I think a lot if it was still present in DoFP) in that he displays a lot of self loathing behavior. He spends a lot of his scenes in XM:A making fun of himself, calling himself a loser in a 'joking' manner to make the kids laugh, the comments he makes to his mom about her telling him to leave the house, ect. There's a scene when he's talking to Raven about Erik (SPOILERS) in which he talks about being too slow every time he needed to have a moment with Erik/too slow to stop or save his family. His expressions in that scene really sell that's its not just color commentary or joking whenever he makes those digs at himself, Peter honestly deals with a lot of self esteem issues.

We don't really see as much of that in DoFP but I think it's something still present and I don't think those issues only manifested after mutants went public. As a teenager Peter puts on a lot more bravado but growing up how he did I can only imagine he spent a lot of time comparing himself to 'normal' kids. Other kids didn't have weird hair, other kids had fathers, ect ect. I think many versions of the Maximoffs involve a bit of us vs them mentality, and this is how I saw that manifest in Peter.

Being in game has actually made this worse for him. There was the big question of Pietro that really kicked it off to spiraling downwards. What Wanda showed him of Pietro from her memories was obviously colored by her own interpretation of her brother and Billy only told Peter good things about his uncle in an attempt to be kind, but Peter is not exactly known for his critical thinking skills and he took their impressions at face value. Their Pietros were better, heroic and smarter and more beloved. Just better. It didn't take much for Peter to start thinking they'd rather have their Pietro rather than him and from there it became an easy thing to compare himself to this fantasy version of Pietro he'd built up in his head.

After actually meeting Pietro and a few strong conversations, he felt less a need to compare himself to a ghost but started to push those comparisons outward. Peter's been in conflict with himself for a while. He's had good people, people he trusts, tell him what he's capable of. He's got good in him, there are people even from his future willing to vouch that he's going to be a hero someday. But he can't reconcile that with the things he's already done. He got someone he loves killed, he's put Wanda through hell, he's been a disappointment to his family, he let a terrorist out of prison, he maybe tried to murder an person? He feels guilty and he lets that guilt make him insecure, lets it make him think he's not the person everyone's telling him he is.

And thus the comparisons come rolling out. He compares himself to people he sees doing better than him in a mental self depreciation. Because he wants to be better and wants to believe all those people telling him that he will be, but it's easier to look at others and simply think 'that's never going to be me'. This, to me, is just what comes before the self depreciating jokes he starts to revert to in Apocalypse. He thinks about it long before he starts saying things aloud.

I think it's something he will grow out of with the right amount of positive influence and as he starts actually doing better things that force he to realize he's not as bad as he thinks. (I would think that after living with the X-Men he'll be spouting less jokes about himself in upcoming movies or it will be something that gets addressed as I hardly see Charles or even Raven letting him by with it for long)

This is a lot of rambling but basically, no. Never. Slack is for other, better people.

[notglitching]

....this is a lot of really excellent rambling and I don't have much to say in return besides ow. Peter, please let up on yourself. D: