[ The words are caught in his throat, threatening to choke him. He thought they were safe. He barely keeps himself from laughing, knowing if he does he won't be able to stop. He wants to scream, wants to somehow block away the part of himself that knows what happened.
Instead he follows Ivor's lead, like he always does. He keeps his eyes down for a time until he realizes he's leaving a trail and then he just stares into the middle distance. He doesn't dare touch anything in the room, is horrifyingly aware of the blood seeping into Ivor's jacket the same way it soaked into his own. ]
I did it. [ He's suprised his voice is calm as it is. Inside his chest is like a hurricane. He wonders what he'll see when he peels off his shirt. ] You know I did, don't you?
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Instead he follows Ivor's lead, like he always does. He keeps his eyes down for a time until he realizes he's leaving a trail and then he just stares into the middle distance. He doesn't dare touch anything in the room, is horrifyingly aware of the blood seeping into Ivor's jacket the same way it soaked into his own. ]
I did it. [ He's suprised his voice is calm as it is. Inside his chest is like a hurricane. He wonders what he'll see when he peels off his shirt. ] You know I did, don't you?